one interview

few days back i was interviewed by one company futures first working in derivative trading. just after written test we were told- you have interviews right now, without any prior information. we even didn't prepare for that.

interviewer was iit delhi 2004 passout so it was quite obvious that he started gossiping with me.

questions started like this..
tell me about our company?
becoz i got mail in the evening and morning we had exam, and as i m lazy so i hadn't looked at their site as well. so my obvious answer was, i don't know much about ur company except it is doing some trading.

he was shocked, what the hell r u doing here if you don't know abt our company, next question was - tell me ur interest?
uff this is very difficult question for me, becoz my interest doesn't stick to one subject. it keeps on changing day by day...fortunately that day my interest was in finance, so i told my interest is in finance, marketing or trading etc etc.

so he told me...wat !! which one is ur interest-either finance or marketing or trading, so i replied finance, so he told me-" we r working in derivative trading, do u know this...and it is different from finance" , i was now confused, wat ?

anyway he kept on moving with next question, do u know something about trading etc.?
it was now out of limit, i was again forced to tell him that sorry i am fresher in this field and just becoz i m curious to know all these things i am changing my field.

ok, then why do u want to change from ibm to our company?
yeah this was gud question and i answered very well...NOT FUNNY...he was happy with my answer.

then he told me, do one thing, i m giving you some references , read this, and prepare for interview and go through our site and we will reshedule your interview...don't worry it doesn't matter you know all these things...this job doesn't need any priror knowledge
-so i told him, "i don't know about your company" if this is the only reason for resheduling this interview, could you please tell me something abt ur company and check skills that you want to check, becoz i don't want to delay this process, becoz for today's test i had to take leave....so he told me don't worry, we work here till 11:30PM, you can come after your office time as well...
then again i forced him...could you please make it telephonic-
no no , i don't want to make it telephonic.

uff, i later on decided not to go there and mailed them, right now i can't change my company, i would surely like to contact you in near future, thanks for selecting me for this interview.

May be this is looking like i was over confidence or i was showing off, no actually i had already decided not to join this company, becoz their timings were very hectic 11:30am to 10:30pm in winters and 11:30pm in summers...and pay scale was also not gud, and all these i got to know after giving test...so i didn't have any choice except to attend the interview, i was just giving answers normally which were correct in itself - nothing wrong in those answer.

my beliefs...

"For those who have faith, no proof is necessary.
For those without faith, no proof is sufficient."
-- the Hallmark of Hogwash

I believe in...

• God
• Customs
• Parents
• True Love
• Friends
• Helping others
• Principles (Upto some extent)
• Hard Work
• Love at first sight
• Simplicity
• Sincerity and punctuality
• Live in present and don't think much about future and past
• Dignity due to great work rather than money
• Not interfering in other's matters

Kyu...

Poem: Kyu Written by : Pankaj Mittal
Date:11 Dec,2006 Time:12:30 PM

This one is on Goyal's request, and dedicated to his beloved one...

Sapno mein aati ho dost bankar
samne ajnabee si lagti ho kyu,
haan manta hoon ajnabi hai hum abhi
phir bhi har pal apni si lagti ho kyu

Janti ho main tumhe chupke se dekhta hoon
phir jankar bhi anjaan banti ho kyu
dost kehti ho par manti nahi
phir saath chalne se darti ho kyu

sketch

kuch lines...

Dost dosti ka vasta dekar tere barein mein puchte hai,
lekin main itna swarthi, tera naam batane se bhi darta hoon.

--
Sochta hoon kabhi kuch pal apne liye bhi doon
par kya karoon hal pal mein tum jo basi ho.

Gulzaar style...

Mujhe shak tha ki tum mann hi mann kisi ko bahut chahti ho
par shak yakeen mein badal gaya jab tumne mujhe ped ke peeche se chupke se dekha
tum janti thi ki main tumhe dekh chuka hoon,
lekin shaayad tumhe mere chehre par halki si muskarahat ka intzaar tha.

is this wonderful life..that i was expecting?

i was never expecting this kind of rubbish life...i want to do work but i don't even have motivation to do, i pass most of the time infront of computer but i don't know wat i want to do...i don't even go thru any docs or any site...just randomly clicking the links, don't know whr i want to land...
same is happening in remaining time, nothing is looking good nw a days, everything is so boring. How jolly and charming person i was, i used to think that i will never feel like i am feeling now.
almost every moment in the evening i used to sit with my pencil and some blank papers, don't know wat i want to write or draw, but there is something that enforces me to get up in the night with the same feeling that i shud write something....

yesterday samething happened to me, i got up at 1 and started writing on paper...may be some poem, that is the thing by which i show my feelings, but after few min. wat happend i switched off lights, and went back to sleep...today in the office as well, i went down to the building, half an hour i was just wandering around, feeling very lonely, and upset...God ! help me, i write everything in my diary but don't want to share with anyone, i want to tell something to anyone but don't like any company, my frends in my office told me most of the time, whenever u go for lunch, just call us, but i like solitude now a days...sit alone in dark in my room, fall into deep thoughts....want to hide somewhr,want to run away somewhr..don't know whr....!!
I WANT TO BE WAT I WAS IN MY COLLEGE DAYS...!! I M NOT LIKING THIS PHASE...VERY PAINFUL IT IS....
There are other issues as well...which make me tense...it's kind of depressing somepoint of time. Don't know when will i return to my originality....uffff

Dream Girl

Sketch drawn in first year of my
graduation. I like her small bindi a lot....

berang zindagi

Poem: Berang zindagi; Written by: Pankaj Mittal
Nov 4, 2006 ; Time: 1 PM

Dedicated to all of my friends who fell in love ...

kuch dino se jindagi berang si lagne lagi hai
saari ichchayein dil hi mein marne lagi hai

yeh doori teri yaad ko aur gahra kar deti hai,
aankhon mein hi nahi, dil mein bhi jalan si hone lagi hai

iss tarah main na ji sakunga,
ruh meri yeh ab mujhse kahne lagi hai

raat ke andhere mein jab nikalta hoon,
teri parchaiya mera peecha karne lagi hai

kayi dost saathi hai mere phir bhi,
ek dost ki kami mahsoos hone lagi hai

tumhara gam ek din mujhe le doobega,
iski jhalak mujhe abhi se dikhne lagi hai

kya karoon dil ko koi aur nahi bhata,
tabhi tu majboori mein badalne lagi hai

likh to sakta hoon main aur bhi bahut kuch,
par aankh meri ab bojhal si hone lagi hai

sach kahoon to yeh mere dil ke alfas hai,
par janta hoon yeh kavita si dikhne lagi hai

kuch dino se jindagi berang si lagne lagi hai
saari ichchayein dil hi mein marne lagi hai ||

...mera mann hai

Poem: ...Mera Mann Hai; Written by: Pankaj Mittal
28 Nov, 2006 Time: 11 PM

Chaha tha ki din raat tumhe dekhoon
par ab tumhe ek nazar dekh loon, mera mann hai

Chaha tha ki tumhare saath zindagi bitaoon
par ab tumhare saath kuch pal mil jaaye, mera mann hai

Chaha tha tumhe apne bare mein sab kuch bataoon
par ab tum kuch pucho, mera mann hai

Chaha tha tumhe apne ghar par bulaoon
par ab tumhare saath ek coffee hi sahi, mera mann hai

Chaha tha tum sapno se nikal kar samne aa jao
par ab kevel sapno mein hi aa jao, mera mann hai

Chaha tha tumhare saath tumhare sukh dukh baantoo
par ab tum apne kevel dukh de jao, mera mann hai

Chaha tha tumhari har saans mein mera naam ho
par ab kabhi to tum mujhe yaad karo, mera mann hai

Chaha tha tumhe saamne bithakar yeh sab kahoon
par ab tum bina kuch kahe samajh jao, mera mann hai !!