Saturday, September 20, 2008

Feeling Guilty

I was returning from office. My office is in whitefield, bangalore and this place is 28 km away from home. We moved few meters, all of a sudden bus stopped. I saw outside from windown pane, and I saw jammed road, full of traffic. There is no place even for a cycle to move. Just for 10 km, bus took 1 hr 15 min. Yes this is frustrating, instead of feeling frustration with this traffic I was feeling guilty. Why this kind of weird feeling suddenly started haunting me. When I don't see any solution for a problem, this feeling comes because I don't see any contribution from my side so I don't have any right to blaim anyone.

This feeling didnot stop there, I started thinking more weird things. I was thinking, I am s/w engineer, can I develop any software which can somehow manage or reduce this junk. But unfortunately any s/w cannot solve this problem. So I started thinking about any solution which I can propose or give to anyone who is authorized to implement. But after lot of brainstorming I came back to the point where I started, no solution from my side. So this feeling of guilt continued.

Not only traffic there are hundreds of issue we are facing daily -
What am i doing when a traffic police takes bribe openly ?
What is my action when a bomb blasts in my colony koramangala?
Why I am not joining politics if I know they are noy doing their duties honestly ?
What...

There is no end of this 'what' and 'why' list. But honestly speaking I am just looking whatever is happening around me, I can escape by saying what can I do , I am working in different field, and I don't see any way to help and people are there to do and they are not doing properly. But I know this is not an excuse.


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