Feeling Guilty

I was returning from office. My office is in whitefield, bangalore and this place is 28 km away from home. We moved few meters, all of a sudden bus stopped. I saw outside from windown pane, and I saw jammed road, full of traffic. There is no place even for a cycle to move. Just for 10 km, bus took 1 hr 15 min. Yes this is frustrating, instead of feeling frustration with this traffic I was feeling guilty. Why this kind of weird feeling suddenly started haunting me. When I don't see any solution for a problem, this feeling comes because I don't see any contribution from my side so I don't have any right to blaim anyone.

This feeling didnot stop there, I started thinking more weird things. I was thinking, I am s/w engineer, can I develop any software which can somehow manage or reduce this junk. But unfortunately any s/w cannot solve this problem. So I started thinking about any solution which I can propose or give to anyone who is authorized to implement. But after lot of brainstorming I came back to the point where I started, no solution from my side. So this feeling of guilt continued.

Not only traffic there are hundreds of issue we are facing daily -
What am i doing when a traffic police takes bribe openly ?
What is my action when a bomb blasts in my colony koramangala?
Why I am not joining politics if I know they are noy doing their duties honestly ?
What...

There is no end of this 'what' and 'why' list. But honestly speaking I am just looking whatever is happening around me, I can escape by saying what can I do , I am working in different field, and I don't see any way to help and people are there to do and they are not doing properly. But I know this is not an excuse.

life is waste without music...

Keyboard is the only instrument for which I have always shown interst in learning. In college also I tried a lot to get classes, but somehow it could not be possible, because I never saw a city worse than kanpur where you can not get a institute nearby. One teacher came for 2 days and left. For guitar there was no problem. Any way finally after a long time I found a nice place in bangalore.
Although I like other instruments also but this is different than others. It has already been 4 month, I joined classes. Interestingly I didnot miss a single class, infact you can say single minute. I like to go there and forget about rest of the world, just enjoy that 2 hrs. This is very good school nearby my home, where lots of 5-12 yrs old kids come and learn keyboard, drums etc. When I joined, there were only kids and few more person with me. This was very frustrating, not a single person of my age. Almost 2 months I used to go and spending as much time as I can with teacher, because there were less junta so it was gud for me to personally sit with teacher and learn. In few months ppl started coming and now class has good strength, all kinds of person. But I feel like I am also a teacher, because in terms of learning I crossed others who joined before me. So now after 4 months, it's like my own place, may be in few months I will be able to help others too :)