Yesterday everything was fine. I slept well but next day would be so horrible I couln't imagine. Today till afternoon I was happily living even there was H1N1 panic in the air. I had been suffering from mild cough for last few days, but I didn't care much, because I am alergic to dust, so it was normal for me. But today when suddenly I got fever and soon after I realized very mild pain in my throat, kind of tonsil, I suddenly opened few sites to know the symptoms of H1N1 and my symptoms. OMG, I have 2 symptoms out of so many. And worst part is that saturday I played cricket so much that I realised so much pain in my body. I almost thought I would be dead in next few days.
I am going to work from home tomorrow onwards, let's see what is it..just wait and watch. If it increases in next few days, I will go for test as well.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Friday, March 13, 2009
Dreams are still haunting me.
Dream started from a room, where a lady comes and ask me some questions. I later realised that she called me at her home to know about some guy who was going to marry her daughter. And because I know this guy, so she wanted to inquire about him from me. Above all this, I very well know her daughter and her mom doesn't know this. The worst part is that I like this girl madly and girl doesn't want me to be around her. So situation is , if she(her daughter) saw me here in her house, she will probably gone mad.
I was sitting on the sofa, waiting aunt to come and ask quickly whatever she wanted to ask because I was afraid of her daughter to come. It was working day so there was still some time left her to come from office. As soon as I get any noice from door side, I suddenly feel fear and I know exact sentences what she will say to me if she is the one that I am not expecting. Whenever I saw her, I certainly feel a pleasing sensation and I enjoyed those moments so much that I forget other things. My eyes do not want to move from her face. I am quite sure, I am not afraid of her, but afraid of her reaction whenever she faces me, her reaction clearly says..You moron, please leave me…although she smiles.
Anyway I was waiting for aunt to come. Here she comes and ask few questions about that guy and I at that moment realised she likes that guy for her daughter but she wants one more confirmation. I felt so much jealous and off course disappointed. Then again she went back to kitchen. I suddenly heard a knock on the door, I saw some body behind the curtain of main door, but I couldn't see the face, but I can see the white 'salwar' which was swaying because of wind, this person is female in white dress. Aunt came and saw who was at the door, and found a neighbour girl. I took a deep breath, I was almost going to say , thank god !!
After few minutes, I heard one more knock on the door. Now this time she was here. She entered in the room, but she did not see me. For letting her know that I was here, I said 'hi' . She looked at me in shock and said -'Tum yahan'. This sounds very normal but the tone was different as if she was saying 'tum yahan bhi…mummy, what is he doing here'. Expressions says everything even the words that you don't utter. I can not explain the feeling that I had at that moment, I want to tell her the same feelings 100 more times that I already told her but it didn't matter to her at that moment nor now.
Anyway somehow some pointless talking was happening at that moment, I didn't want to be part of that talking , but couldn't do anything. She was looking so happy with her marriage, and I fool was standing there and looking at her, still can not believe that she is with her fiancé. Yes, I felt fully jealous, he was looking joker to me , I don't know whether he was or not. My dreams were shattered like they were nothing. I couldn't resist myself being upset. I left the house.
Feeling about the dream is complex, it's mixture of happiness and disappointment. Happiness because, I got a chance to see her that gives me so much energy and happiness. Disappointment..No need to say. This was very early morning dream and I believe that early morning dreams come true….Ahh, No.
I was sitting on the sofa, waiting aunt to come and ask quickly whatever she wanted to ask because I was afraid of her daughter to come. It was working day so there was still some time left her to come from office. As soon as I get any noice from door side, I suddenly feel fear and I know exact sentences what she will say to me if she is the one that I am not expecting. Whenever I saw her, I certainly feel a pleasing sensation and I enjoyed those moments so much that I forget other things. My eyes do not want to move from her face. I am quite sure, I am not afraid of her, but afraid of her reaction whenever she faces me, her reaction clearly says..You moron, please leave me…although she smiles.
Anyway I was waiting for aunt to come. Here she comes and ask few questions about that guy and I at that moment realised she likes that guy for her daughter but she wants one more confirmation. I felt so much jealous and off course disappointed. Then again she went back to kitchen. I suddenly heard a knock on the door, I saw some body behind the curtain of main door, but I couldn't see the face, but I can see the white 'salwar' which was swaying because of wind, this person is female in white dress. Aunt came and saw who was at the door, and found a neighbour girl. I took a deep breath, I was almost going to say , thank god !!
After few minutes, I heard one more knock on the door. Now this time she was here. She entered in the room, but she did not see me. For letting her know that I was here, I said 'hi' . She looked at me in shock and said -'Tum yahan'. This sounds very normal but the tone was different as if she was saying 'tum yahan bhi…mummy, what is he doing here'. Expressions says everything even the words that you don't utter. I can not explain the feeling that I had at that moment, I want to tell her the same feelings 100 more times that I already told her but it didn't matter to her at that moment nor now.
Anyway somehow some pointless talking was happening at that moment, I didn't want to be part of that talking , but couldn't do anything. She was looking so happy with her marriage, and I fool was standing there and looking at her, still can not believe that she is with her fiancé. Yes, I felt fully jealous, he was looking joker to me , I don't know whether he was or not. My dreams were shattered like they were nothing. I couldn't resist myself being upset. I left the house.
Feeling about the dream is complex, it's mixture of happiness and disappointment. Happiness because, I got a chance to see her that gives me so much energy and happiness. Disappointment..No need to say. This was very early morning dream and I believe that early morning dreams come true….Ahh, No.
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